Ace wrote:My auntie is dead.
No joke people! She was found dead in the early hours this morning. My uncle who is her husband found her dead on the floor and covered in bruises.
No one knows for certain for the cause of death, but the police think it's a very possible murder case.
Her name is emma and has a history on causing problems. As in lieing, cheating and framing. She wasn't the most liked person but still...murder?
I had a phone call from my mother and she told me emma was found dead. I don't know alot and so I'll keep you updated. For some reason, I'm not upset in anyway. Should I be?
I don't feel anything, I really don't. We never talked and never really had the chance to even meet each other. I rarely saw her and only on the occasion would I see her but that was it.
She spoke to me once when the whole family was having a little party but that was it.
I still feel nothing.
I don't feel upset at all.
It's weird how that works. It was only after I lost someone really close to me, my best friend, that I was affected by other people's death enough to feel real pain or sadness. Until then, I felt detached from death. For example, I was pretty close to my German grandmother, but when she died, I hadn't seen her in a while, and she was overseas, so I really never felt any deep profound sadness like I would have expected.
After my best friend died, I remember watching a newsreel about an earthquake in India that resulted in a lot of deaths. There was a woman howling at the loss of her husband in the newsreel, and for the first time, at age 34, I was able to truly empathize with how she must have felt, and felt deep genuine sadness for this stranger.
Ace, I don't wish the pain of grief on anyone, so I say, run with your feelings, feel absolutely no guilt for not feeling bad. The reality of life is one day, eventually, you will feel that pain and I say better later than earlier.
