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by lordpasternack » Wed Mar 14, 2012 2:12 pm
You misunderstand me, Kiki. I don't believe that Paula spoiled some relationship for me (well, actually, I do have a sneaking suspicion that that might have been PART of her motive, and part of her antagonism towards me - but it's very minor in my mind). What I do believe is that she deliberately chose to spite me, chose to refuse to act in her own and RDFRS's interests in order to spite me, and reached spurious conclusions about my motives and character in order to spite me and excuse her own gross failure to be professional.
I also believe that those notions she held/holds about me are bollocks - and that she is having a fucking laugh if she thinks it's perfectly above par, and good PR, to purposefully ignore individuals - and fail to properly address the fact that nobody really knows what RDFRS has been up to over the past two years. If she sincerely believes that it's quite acceptable, and professional, to take 7 weeks to copy and paste a hundred or so words onto the website where they should have already been, ages ago - then it's good that we can know for sure how low she lets her standards slip - and start suggesting possible new candidates for her role - who might just take their position, and the public image of RDFRS, seriously with a little more CONSISTENCY than Paula.
I also believe that aside from this being pathetic performance from Paula - that it was pathetic that Richard was even remotely convinced of its legitimacy even for five fucking minutes. The mind seriously boggles. It's also pathetic that, as per usual, Richard has probably been busy placating, rationalising, excusing and enabling the fatuous incompetence of both himself and his protégés - while I prefer to be more CONSISTENT in my desire to to ridicule the ridiculous, and contempt the contemptible, and hold incompetence to account. If this is true - then, again - it's nice at least to be aware of how low his standards for RDFRS really are - and why anybody in their right mind should find a more professional organisation to back if they support the causes that RDFRS purports to support.
Indeed - for all that I might say about his staff, and for all his well-intentioned, occasionally aggravating, fickle naivety - Richard is far and away the biggest obstacle in the way of his foundation. Not only in his frankly dire negligence, and poor delegation of responsibilities - but in his utter incapacity and unwillingness to hold those in his foundation properly to account - and his credulous gullibility, and his running of a seemingly endless excuse-mill for conduct that he would SCORN AND DESPISE in any organisation besides his own. And his utter incapacity to make his foundation take proper ownership of problems they have created, and properly concede responsibility… I daresay, were it not his own charity - Richard would quite rightly choose not to donate a penny to RDFRS.
So don't for a minute think that this is all about me and sour grapes about who is close to Richard and how bitchy they've been with me. I think they'd like to believe that, too. It would be easier to swallow, again, than to accept that I'm as willing to lump Richard right in there with them and tell them all what-for - for what it's worth… For what it's worth…
And given that Richard really IS suffering from such an incurable mental block surrounding his foundation, and really is constitutionally incapable of some of the most basic tasks of managing a charity and community - then I'm quite glad that Paula and others have helped me to see this in clear resolution. That they've let us know on quite clear terms, just how low they like their standards, sometimes. What drivel they are willing to find acceptable from each other. And if this is the case - then, quite frankly, they're welcome to each other.
This isn't very personal. I don't hold personal grudges particularly well, and on the flip-side, I don't often romanticise people in a way that clouds my judgement about them. I will ridicule the ridiculous and praise the praiseworthy irrespective of who's responsible, and move on. But I'm sure I can be very, very offensive at times - and boo-fucking-hoo, frankly.
Then they for sudden joy did weep,
And I for sorrow sung,
That such a king should play bo-peep,
And go the fools among.
Prithee, nuncle, keep a schoolmaster that can teach
thy fool to lie: I would fain learn to lie.