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by Posse Comitatus » Thu Jul 22, 2010 9:34 am
My online presence essentially consists of Facebook, a forum I was on a few years ago, and the various RDF-splinters (though this is the only one I've been anywhere near in months).
With regards to the forum I used to use, it's had repercussions on my actual social life in that an individual I got to know from there, despite me not having posted in about two years, I still talk to, in some forum or another (oftentimes MSN), virtually every day and often at not-inconsiderable length. He's also the only person I know from online who I've ever actually met in real life either (in slightly absurd circumstances- we both, independently, bought tickets to the same concert, not just in the same row but the actual seats next to each other, but we didn't realise until we'd both arrived, the odds of such happening in a venue that sits 3,000 being quite extraordinary).
The rules and limitations of primarily online relationships are very different- and with the person above I'm far more open and less reserved in talking about (or even acknowledging) my own feelings than I am with anyone- by far- that I know socially. It's made me pause for thought at times as to what I'd do without this- as there's actually no one else I could bring myself to do it with and would just go back to bottling everything up. (also if you're (as in him) reading this, fuck off).
It's similar to a degree, though not even approaching the same extent, here, as though in any real sense I barely know anyone I've still made a few masturbatory/angsty threads about my feelings which, though it's not as if they go into a huge amount of detail are still probably far beyond what I'd ever want to tell anyone IRL who is actually concerned (or that I just generally know otherwise). I think the relative privacy afforded here coupled with the sense of distance (no one knows any of my friends) can actually help. I suppose that to a degree here but more so elsewhere I have used the internet to work through or at least begin to address various issues in my real life.
And on that note I don't see any real dichotomy between my online persona and RL me, at least not anymore. I can be, typically perhaps, a bit awkward socially and as I've said I probably am slightly more open online but in terms of how I interact more generally and in how I present myself I don't really recognise a difference.
Facebook is essentially the bridge between OL me and IRL me, though as a general rule, with very, very few exceptions, the only people listed as 'friends' are people I actually know. Has a very very good practical applications for socialising though- the events pages being a god-send as well as a good means of contact when for whatever reason immediate face-to-face contact isn't an option (ie holidays). I suppose really it can make RL social networks far easier to maintain.